tight rope [ Tuesday February 26th 2008 10:19pm ] i feel like i'm walking on a tight rope, everything i know to be balanced in my life in currently off balance and its making me feel off balance. i have a steady mind and a steady flow but my steady flow hasn't been properly functioning lately and my mind is dragging two blocks behind me at all times. i never understood the fact of needing something so greatly that you feel empty without your fill of it, until now. i am finding myself feeling half empty with no one to help me fill my cup back up besides myself. to truely understand yourself you must know yourself, but when i go searching for myself i find a ghostly image with little detail that is surely not finished, but waltzes around like it has the finest trim. i feel as though there is no reverse, but there is no fast forward. isn't that the beauty of life? i must wait somberly and at a null until "it will get easier" arrives. while in the mean time the bustle of my current lifestyle tries to throw every useless backstab at me and maliciously piles weight upon my shoulders as i sit here wondering to myself "what was i thinking?" multiply & divide.

so much so much [ Tuesday August 14th 2007 11:47pm ] i go back to school next wednesday. i couldn't be more excited, i went down there today and sat outside at potbelly's and just soaked in home pretty much. it was amazing. me and adam are offically over. we are still friends. we did make it a year and 8 months though, the longest relationship i've ever had. and whos really to say it's the end of it all together, i think we both just need some time to concentrate on ourselves and our saperate paths for a minute, that's all. it's time for something to move me, and i don't just mean the boxes i'm packing this week. i mean, really truly move me. 3 multiply & divide.

hi. [ Wednesday June 27th 2007 1:06pm ] I got a job at Delphi today, I will be working there until I go back to school. I'm on second shift, 2pm-midnight every day. Not bad expecially with the money I'll be making. soooo, this is my point.... These next two weeks is all I have left for a summer due to working my butt off. lunch?plans?goodtimes? call mee. (katelyn!)<--i realize this is half my fault :) 1 multiply & divide.

[ Sunday April 15th 2007 1:21am ] lately i've learned that change is the progression of our existence. the only problem is i don't know what progression will happen with change. i'm a chinese comic book, upside down and ass backwards.

i'm so ready for summer. [ Monday February 5th 2007 12:03am ] it's amazing how the lack of warmth makes you crave it more then you liked it when it was here in the first place. i miss summer, this below zero crap, is exactly that...crap. i've been working excessively lately. i need the hours, and i enjoy the feeling of being financially stable. i've been working on scholarships again too. i have decided they aren't fun, but its necessary. this semester isn't as fun as the last, im more comfortable, but at the same time more annoyed. sometimes michigan state doesn't feel like home i suppose. homeliness comes with the revolution of the sun. just for fun, keeps me extremely warm is this horrid weather. oh and this is for fun also. yah im sexy i know. pahahhaha. k night. 1 multiply & divide.

screaming halt. [ Wednesday November 15th 2006 3:22pm ] this semester is coming to a screaming halt pretty quickly. it seems i just moved here, but i'm really starting to enjoy the peace of mind i get from knowing i am out on my own. things are different, the skys different, its not a home-y feeling when i look up. But, its all the reassurance i am going to recieve at this junture. it smells different here, its a different atmosphere. ive come to the quick conslusion thats it the faces that create that feeling, there are lots of them these days. today is Adam and I's eleven months, and i couldnt be happier. its a release to finally settle for something and enjoy it at the same time, ive never found that type of satisfaction before from a relationship. an hour and a half is nothing. sunshine is what im looking forward too, and good eating. no more fried mumbo gumbo. i miss people, and im starting to walk more frequently. 2 multiply & divide.

[ Wednesday September 6th 2006 10:18pm ] hey i have to keep a lj for class. http://meghanswrablog.livejournal.com/ how lame but, i figured if you would like to read it here you go. msu is pretty sweet, i enjoy it here. its really big but, im adapting. i kinda miss bay city, that was the weirdest sentence i've ever said. 11 multiply & divide.

[ Friday July 7th 2006 5:04am ] right now im in detriot. im on my way to amsterdam in about 2 hours here. im skipping outta this country for a couple weeks to see my friend charlotte in germany munich, ill be in munich. i hope the ocean doesnt swallow me whole. ewhrkewhr! yay! 1 multiply & divide.

love-monster. [ Sunday May 14th 2006 1:37pm ] i have $10,809 dollars towards a $17,000 dollar year at MSU. i'm working my way there slowly. i am sick of looking at this journal, when i'll change it around maybe we will be amigos again. or not. prom was good. maybe ill update with pictures. oh my god really?

[ Wednesday March 29th 2006 12:21am ] my mother has huntingtons disease. two of my ex-friends decided to get "fair and square" by feeding her hypocritical lies. i hope you'll be happy to know she disowned me as a daughter and isn't attending my graduation because, she "is scared for her life." i hope you get some type of euphoric delectation out of what you've done. you've accomplished whatever it was that you were aiming for. i'll never get my mother back, at least the part of her i did have until the disease takes over and she is unable to talk. apparently "chrisy and justine" are better daughters. i forgot i'm the one with a "drinking problem that is out of control." i'll never get her back, and my hate for you will never go away.

mmm. [ Sunday January 29th 2006 7:45pm ] whats happening to me, i never update this. it's probaly because i have decided that the whole internet world is nothing like reality. on a harder note : my ipod got stolen at school out of my car. its a white video one, if you know anything about it, get at me. 2 multiply & divide.

[ Friday January 13th 2006 11:21am ] im 18 now. happy birthday to me. !!

[ Saturday December 31st 2005 4:21pm ] as is.

[ Friday December 30th 2005 12:53am ] i like my new video ipod. i like it alot. it makes me feel trendy per-say. i hate the word trendy. but, it seems to fit. (even though i stole someone elses word for it.)

today im fresh out of random headings. [ Saturday December 24th 2005 2:30pm ] i honestly hate updating. thought i would state that before i begin an update longer then any i have posted in a few months. happy christmas eve. my mom gets her test back on the 2nd. did i mention how scary that is? did i mention i don't like needles, and they will have to stab me with one if shes positive. i hate needles. i could never do heroin. i swear this new years i'll stop biting my nails. right, like that'll ever happen. i got a squid for christmas, my gift is better then yours. <3 4 multiply & divide.

[ Friday December 16th 2005 8:36pm ] i like this feeling. oh BOY.

[ Sunday December 11th 2005 4:05pm ] im at katie strubles for two weeks. my grandparents come home on the 17th. my hair is now 6 inches shorter. :) p.s, i hate to say it but, myspace has become addictive.

[ Tuesday November 29th 2005 9:36pm ] i got told i look like i should be an actress tonight. sometimes life throws those little things at you.

[ Friday November 25th 2005 4:08pm ] i have to agree with charlotte, americans are crazy to wake up at 6am. but, i did it, and suprisingly after 9 hours all i have to show is a coat and a pair of mittens. 47 days and im 18. im pumped.

[ Sunday November 13th 2005 9:53pm ] [ mood | calm ] [ music | franz. ] sorry this is a week old, im behind. 8 days ago was fun. :) ( endorphins! ) ( play. )it seems like ever since senior year started people have taken a one way ticket on the "i dont care" bandwagon to idontcareville. sure the mentalidy has been there all along. people not caring but, lately its been consistent. it's like people have put their life on hold, and decided that everything risky has to happen at this moment in time. if thats how i have to live to keep friends, i guess i'll settle for no friends because apparently they weren't true in the first place. i'm the type of person to worry about things, im not doing it if i don't want to. and thats the way its going to be. and quit making assumptions, you don't know me anymore. (make new mistakes all the time but don't relive old ones.) 11 multiply & divide.

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